expected the unexpected

When i left kerala i was so happy and filled up with joy to hear that am gonna study in chennai.I had lots of things running on my mind.Chennai a metro city with places which i have just heard of. I was so eager to join some college in chennai and start making friend's and hang around like we used to do in our school days. Then i make the biggest mistake of my life joining this college which is so pathetic. I could not find a crowd that matched to my thinking and style. For the first time in my life i felt like i was being avoided or pushed off. Things got pretty worse during the first week of my college. People have always taken advantage of me and it happened again and kept happening. I was the only keralite in my class, it felt so odd. Every time i tried to speak out something in tamil i kept making mistakes because that mallu touch(slang) was there and all my class mates used to make fun of me and pull my leg every day and every chance they get,but as time passed by i got used to all that and went along pretty well with my class mates. For almost one month i used to go to the beach all alone by myself. I used to see college guys and gals meeting up every now and then ,they come in groups on a couple of bikes and the whole gang form a group and start yapping and laughin their guts out...hmmmm i jus used to sit and stare at them with a smoke in my hand thinking deeply when will i ever get a chance to do all this. To tell you guys the truth am a very shy guy. I love to make friends but its just that i really dont know how to start. College went on, everyday after college i used to see my class mates get together at the end of the road and plan out some thing.Even at that moment when i see them planning out i used to have that feeling whether i should go and approach them and tell them that i would like to join up with u guys...oh fuck it man.. i have been such an introvert all along my life,now i find it so hard to cope up with. I thought by heading over to chennai i could get over with this solitary confinement of mine but turned out to be the opposite.I did not know anybody around my neighbor hood.But as time passed by i realized that i have been pushing my self out of the path.I had all sorts of stuffs running on my mind when i came to chennai..I thought i could freak out and have the college life which i had always dreamt of,but by the time i came into my second year of college life i had started accepting the mistakes which i had made earlier which made me into this MAN now.

well guys this is my first blog,hope i did it well.